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2010-10-20T15:42:00.005+08:00

Pretty sure I felt like a useless loser that does nothing right. It's as if I'm bad at everything I do. I feel hated and unwanted sometimes. Why am I the only one making mistakes? It's not even the first day of work anymore. I'm exaggerating over getting the wrong order. But still. The girl said I think too much well yeah I think so too but I can't help it.

I love and hate the walk back home after work. Love how I just listen to really loud music and have the wind mess up my hair, hate how I just think about how stupid I've been over every single thing.

Anyway last night I dreamt of that biker. I woke up and was like wha? Why? O-O
Nyee and the people there have a nickname for me and sad to say it's nothing new sobz. I'll just go heyyy ugh tsk don't laugh. Pfah! Ice cube boi started it.

Yeah I still feel horrible about taking the wrong order. Ffffff I suck.

On a happier note, this girl asked what's my name and said I'm pretty then she looks at my leg and says I should just quit and go be a model. Some kid asked for my number. Bunch of kids kept smiling and talking to me. Biker laughed at my nickname. The girl I gave coupons away with was really nice. H's nice too.

I don't know I still feel like shit like I'm not cut out for anything.
My card inked 11:11 when I started work but I cba.

2010-10-18T17:13:00.014+08:00

First time working alone today afternoon shift without Rayray or Melvin with me and it started off kinda blah blah blah I'm so alone sobz no friend no nothing then next thing I know I'm like yay heehe hello mwahaha hee so all's good. Work again tomorrow. Lalalove it. Jon and his friends came to eat. Melrize, Nasirah and Amy came to eat too. I saw Ryan with his creepy smile walking along the corridor outside. Another few girls said hi too so yep I'm still liking the environment I'm in + the people and all :D

The ice cube guy (Yes I know his name) went to check out my name and he kept making fun of me. He's quite nice though. The other guy too. Nyee was made fun a few times but it's okay because it made working less boring. Mmm yesterday we bumped into Axk2 at the gym, explains why he's so fit.

I don't think anyone's interested in reading anymore because I only talk about work |:

2010-10-17T15:45:00.009+08:00

I should stop updating this site. Nothing interesting to talk about just that I love my job cause it's osm posm and the people there are funny and caring heehe. It was like Diner Dash last night.

Just got back from the gym. So the next few weeks is gonna be work and then work and then work and then school and then work and then school and then work and then gym if there's time and then work and then school. I'm not even bothered with my birthday! I've never liked birthdays :D

Oh right while waiting for the bus to the gym I was thinking why's it so hard to believe I've never had a yeah you know boifwen. Ugh why is it wrong? Fwah! And! Guys can never go wrong with opening the door for girls or rather ahem ladies I should say. Unless dumb enough to swing open and then piak the girl's face omg hahahahaha that one you can just go and die. Mwaha just because a guy held open the door for us just now.. ya I take notice the slightest thing. I was like ooooh thank you!

I was saying how I don't quite like standing at the entrance because I don't want to smile at boys.... because their girlfriend would give me the look like whatchu-want-keep-your-eyes-to-yourself then I'm like oh well. Then there's this part where random guys would suddenly smile and say hi and hurry walk away. Freaks me out sometimes!! Hate it when the customer shows me their palm when I'm talking halfway then I'm like mmm. Miaomiaomiao but I like being busy like this. Alone tomorrow whoop whoop.

I've not handed in my Graduation night form so If I don't get to go then.. mmkay.
And now whenever Space Bound by Eminem plays I remember how stupid I've been. Oke ciao ciao!! x

2010-10-15T08:35:00.007+08:00

Follow me on Twitter if anyone is affected that I don't update as often heehe because I tweet all the time so stalk me there provided you're not some prick that have a problem with what I tweet when it doesn't concern you at all. Lul biatch find your (Coughs) own friends (Coughs) :D

Grr I know saying that might be a turn off and make me sound like a total bitch but be a bitch and I'll be twice that bitch to you. Ugh (Flips hair) Oke nonono I'm not like that oke scratch that. I got awesome people around me and that shall not affect me anymore mwaha <3

Met R and M yesterday before work for awhile, talked and ate then R left. Yes I started working and yesterday was day 2 and it already feels like home. Come and say hi and eat there (often) mwaha just don't make it too awkward for me. Day 1 of work was on Wednesday with R and yesterday was with M. I'm working again tomorrow with R. This is my first job and of course I was scared shite but I'm getting used to it. After work, hung out at the playground for a little while then headed home. Nyee! x

Radit dan Jani Y U NO ENG SUBS?!

2010-10-14T09:00:00.006+08:00

I don't care if you hate this song because the lyrics makes sense and I like it. Yes I am aware how cheesy and old this song is and people my age or near my age would never thinking about hitting play without stopping it after 10 seconds but I have it on repeat for whao God knows how long it's been on repeat. This song is staying here, nah uh not gonna remove it. Shite I sound stupid again.

P.S For almost every minute I'm not here I'm over at Tumblr reblogging stuff I can't say.

2010-10-13T07:56:00.011+08:00

I just had a nice cold bath. God knows what time I woke up. Lights switched off. The living room is dark for a reason. I can't help being a coward or getting used to this. Cry cry cry because that's all I ever fucking do. I dread first day of actual work in the evening till night with eyes like that. It's okay, hello fake smiles. Apologetic songs on Youtube isn't helping, at all. This is not for sympathy because I don't need any. It's been long since I've typed what I wanted to type. Secrets are meant to be secrets.

Lesson learnt.

2010-10-10T12:56:00.000+08:00

All on purpose.

2010-10-10T09:05:00.000+08:00

Eyes become swollen and puffy when the eye tissue retains fluid. This fluid retention can stem from several factors, including heredity, allergies, stress, fatigue and crying. It can also be caused by alcohol consumption, dehydration or excess sodium. A combination of these factors may also be at work. Since the fluid buildup increases as you sleep, puffy eyes are more noticeable in the morning. Although there is nothing you can do to permanently get rid of swollen eyes, there are some things you can do to help relieve them.

THIS.

2010-10-09T16:33:00.025+08:00

Yesterday while trying to lock the main door when I went out of the house the key broke into two pieces and half of it got stucked in and I'm like omg we're all gonna be homeless tonight but noooOooo parents called the locksmith and it's fixed now whoop whoop phew (Fans self) Mwaha :D

Met Siti in the afternoon. I think that's the first time I went out with her hahahaha we should go out more often. Went our separate ways in the evening, she went home while I went to meet the rest. Hung out. They walked me home at 11+PM. Nyee they're too nice. Bah, hardly had any sleep last night. Mmm oke must end off here. Felt like sucha guilty whiny crybaby though. Embarrasing but thank you. MEH |:

Of the spills of drinks, words and tears. What's life without secrets?
(This chunk of words backspaced)

2010-10-07T18:41:00.016+08:00

Aren't I supposed to rejoice now that N levels are officially over for me? I feel nothing, maybe just a little burden off my shoulders but that's about it. There's nothing to look forward to. I want to dye my hair but I can't because my mom wants me to go for structured programme because that's gonna be my last time studying, sorta. Somebody tell me I'm not the only one sick of feeling empty.

I'm lying if I said I wasn't scared at all just now. When I destroyed the insert paper during the examination. You can't blame me! I was bored because I finished my paper early which is almost a first because I always end up finishing right on the dot or whatnot during Geography paper but this time I started and just kept writing without stopping to look around so yeah I had time to fold a huge paper heart and give it a black border. Mmm and when that guy suddenly started announcing about destroying the insert I'm like holy cow isn't he talking about me oh no oh no oh no I was trying to hide my face and all then sticking my tongue out because I know it's me he's talking about. Everyone gets to leave but me and I was like oh shit I'm scared.. but nah all's good because he's not that mean. Phew :D

Went to Rayray's place with the rest. Ugh I hate the evil lighter and all the evil people trying to hurt me! Then I left earlier to go collect my F21 stuff and hello panda (yay heehe thank you) from Wanyin.

Note to self, things to do during the holidays:

Enlarge my earhole for the 3rd time lol
Fishing/prawning/guppies one of it
Halloween dress up and go out
Gym/run/jog workout hella often
Dye + cut hair (Maybe)
Shop for graduation night stuff
Get a job that I really like
Hang out with different friends
Birthdays and Macbook (Nyee I hope)
Get back to Muay Thaiiiii
Catch up with the shows I've not watch
Watch movies at the theatre
Pool pool pool till I'm not a noob
Organize class outing/bbq/chalet
Be happy and contented
Get fourth (Cough) or something

2010-10-06T09:34:00.010+08:00

Ask me if it's possible to like someone you've never met? Yep him. Marry me, Mike.
Well I think he's an absolute qtpie. He looks a teeny weeny bit like somebody from --- or maybe not :D

2010-10-06T08:55:00.010+08:00

Oh right and I screwed up for quite a number of my papers. I couldn't stand looking at my painting for more than 4 seconds without wanting to rip it and just flinging it away. I don't think I've handed in something so ugly before. Mathematics was really tough for me. What's new? Always been since I stepped into Secondary school. Chemistry was a killer but Physics was doable. Sorry so maybe I really just am not cut out for studies but I'm not saying I'm not gonna try. I do study and I'm gonna try my best for Geography. Yucks how long have I been using this template. Time to hunt for a change then study.

A bay bay! A bay bay! Lol wha? It suddenly popped into my head and I had to Youtube it.

2010-10-06T08:40:00.013+08:00

Everything's zooming past so fast. I'm excited for how my life is gonna change when I'm out of school. Please let it be productive and meaningful. Getting my first part-time job, honestly? Very scared. Probably because my self-esteem is almost non-existent. So yep a really high chance I'm graduating this year. I hope it's for the better (Crosses finger) I'm gonna miss everyone and everything so much. I hope everyone's happy even though I know it's quite impossible. What's life? Xoxo.

2010-10-04T18:24:00.007+08:00

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Arigato gozaimasu!

2010-10-04T18:04:00.011+08:00

I'm not a huge fan of hamsters but luk at dis!! Sew kute don chu just wanna squish it? Bludibudibuuu.

This morning a bee managed to buzz it's way into my room and scared the eff outta me. Not cool.
Why does 3 more days feel like forever? Gonna get off the computer really soon like nananow.

2010-10-03T13:05:00.005+08:00

Left home at 11+AM without a plan. I wanted to get away. Felt crappy and then came that feeling again, that the cars were all trying to hit me when I cross the road. Walked aimlessly and found myself running to Pasir Ris Park - the route we used for x-country and I got lost for a bit looking for ponies. Looked at the signboards but I still couldn't make my way to the stable so I gave up. Wandered for quite awhile and I saw a monitor lizard that looked like a baby crocodile in the water and a huge white bird in the sky twice and I got a bit scared because I thought it was a flying dinosaur (Covers face in embarrassment)

Made my way home and climbed the stairs right up to my doorstep but I ended up taking the lift down again. I wasn't sure where I wanted to go but I just didn't want to be home. This time I was walking on the pavement and a leaf touched my face and I jumped a bit because I thought it was something else. Not long after I got hit by a bicycle. I don't remember hearing anyone ringing their bell or saying excuse me. It didn't hurt but I started crying and continued walking and was forced to go home. I figured out that what hurt most was that people were all too busy living their life to bother. Nobody really cares.

N levels. I'm sick of hearing people say it's nothing. I'm scared to death. I'm not trying hard enough. I'll never be able to start studying for my papers I'm taking tomorrow because I'm not even near to finishing my Art. Art's on Tuesday and I know one day is not enough to finish. I want to start on my Science now but I can't. Going to go get a bath soon then continue with Art.

2010-10-02T18:37:00.016+08:00

Maybe she's right, maybe I've got it. It isn't normal to be this unhappy this often.
Crying over something, crying over nothing. Better off dead and gone.

I don't think this is anything minor because I'm upset and crying over the slightest thing. Sometimes I don't even have an exact reason why. It scares me and this has nothing to do with PMS because I'm not even having my period. TMI? This morning I woke up and felt like dying. Took the lift down and this man came in and he faced the left side of the lift. Don't normal people usually face the door? I was so scared I didn't breathe till we reached the first floor. Walked to school, crossed the roads and felt like the cars were all trying to hit me. I feel so awful please don't ask.

It's okay. I know I don't deserve to be happy. This calls for another session of pain soon.

2010-10-01T18:17:00.011+08:00

Stayed in the school library for more than 5 hours today, close to 6 hours and I only managed to do two drawings? Wdfbbqbao then BMTH started playing. I think I really almost went nuts. Fwah! Geography remedial tomorrow - must go D:

Today's sorta the last day of proper school. How time flies, this is insane. Happy Children's day anyway. Xoxo.

The Cataracs... like mainstream... nananananow...zzz I-nu-it.
P.S I love the 12:00 bell I heard today. It sounded peaceful.

2010-09-28T15:30:00.003+08:00

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2010-09-27T19:50:00.002+08:00

It's been long enough. There's no reason why I still don't know what to do when.. mmm.
Anyway I've decided I've hated myself long enough and that has to change, tomorrow. I'll try.

2010-09-27T15:29:00.004+08:00

I meant every word I say when I said that I'm so sick of my life. I want change.

And everything good is happening somewhere else.
I'm not scared to die, I'm a little bit scared of what comes after.

2010-09-26T08:23:00.013+08:00

I seek comfort in Tumblr, I know it sounds stupid but it helps.

Yesterday I cut up two of my shirts and put it up for sale @ Homeclub and hellooooo sold. One's from Zara, the other from some random shop and I made it looked like it popped out of Topshop. Heh. I secretly like how it turned out after it's being cut, like I actually want it back noooOoOoo but it's alright. D'oh of course it is or I'll be crying already.

I think I have a thing for guys with tattoo sleeves and enlarged earholes (not too big though) mm what's new!?

I know there are people out there that is lonely, unhappy and pretending. Loneliness is underrated. Just know that you're never alone this I swear. I'm sorry if I'm not trying to make any of you feel better because I feel horrible about myself too and I'm tired of constantly feeling that way. I know you too.

2010-09-25T14:48:00.002+08:00

Jalan Raya till 11+PM yesterday :D
Flea @ Homeclub later.

2010-09-23T15:21:00.012+08:00

Yesterday there was this girl in school and there was this guy she thought was cute and he said or thought that she was pretty or something like that and knowing how she felt ugly everyday, that made her happy for awhile even though she didn't quite show it and acted like it's nothing. I bet it felt nice to believe she isn't all that ugly to everyone's eyes. The moon was pretty but she wasn't all that happy without an exact reason. Doubt you know who she is because neither do I.

Okay I should start talking about me. Last night we played with fire and whao do I like the feeling of hot wax dripping on my finger although honestly, it hurt like a bitch for awhile but it hurt good then it doesn't really hurt anymore. I've lost count on the different shite they set fire on but I bet they had fun since they were all looking so happy. Pyromaniacs :D

Watched Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time during English today. 2nd time, heart Prince Dastan aka Jake Gyllenhaal. Omg mwaha I just found out that the evil uncle in the movie acted as Ghandi hahahaha okay. Faiz was using the metal ruler as a sword then I said Prince Dastan??? Then he said I'm Princess Dustbin. Basketball max but it's okay since it's a bit funny T.T

2010-09-22T16:30:00.003+08:00

Woke up late and wanted to skip school but I went at 8ish instead.

2010-09-21T20:33:00.010+08:00

Went to Pasir Ris Park with my mom just now. We talked about disappointments, smoking, drinking, drugs, mainly just bad company. I lied a bit. She brisk walk while I jog and run. It was dark and creepy by the time we were heading home.

Reached the playground first so I sat on the swing then when she reached and sat I was like okay let's go then she was like chou ji dan! Zz thank god the swing didn't snap mwaha just kidding. Walked past the place where 4/3 had picnic and kite flying at the patch of grass so I told my mom about it. Found a signboard that says no kite flying. Weird, has it always been there? Time flies... anyway under my block I decided to kick really high at the letter box because I had nothing to do while she collect the letters then she called me crazy. Tsk. She doesn't want me to go back for MT after N levels but nooo I want to and I'm gonna or it's gonna be Capoeira with the rest? Nothing's decided.

2010-09-20T20:18:00.008+08:00

So I was telling Siti how maybe I really am allergic to Mathematics. I was perfectly okay before it was time for Maths until we all received worksheets to do and I started to feel nauseous and I wanted to sneeze but I couldn't ):

I think I can't express my feelings into words here anymore. I don't know how to and I can't so it's gonna be Tumblr for all things unhappy from now on. It have always been there anyway. Mmmhm. You liking my blog song? Because I like.

Oooh guess what! Someone wrote a song just for me and Siti. Hiakhiakhiak and thanks for that little smudgy note on the back of my calculater that probably got erased already. "Good enough" meant a lot since I have almost no self-esteem left :D

2010-09-20T14:50:00.004+08:00

Why do I not like my life? There's hardly anything to look forward to. Ok no there's just n-o-t-h-i-n-g.
School? I don't know. I have no motivation for anything and I get so restless sometimes |:

2010-09-19T19:14:00.002+08:00

Went to celebrate my Aunt's birthday just now with the rest of my relatives from my dad's side :D

2010-09-18T17:19:00.004+08:00

Now that I've unprivate this place, don't you think I deserve a click on the above nuffnang advertisement the shape of a banner? That is if you see one. It's not aways there but keep clicking each time you drop by this site and see it okay? Thx :D

2010-09-18T16:52:00.004+08:00

2 Minutes ago.

Garang guni man: Hello you mei you bao zi?
Me: 没有.
Gargang guni man: Huai de tian hua?
Me: 没有.
Garang guni man: Shou qi? Tian si? Lehlio? (Radio)
Me: 没有没有 sorry 没有!!!

RAAAAWR why did I even apologize! Irritating. Said 没有 alrd right!
Si da bian bu hui ting hua wen bu yao jiang. Lol jk don't correct my mandarin!! I anyhow bomb pinyin :D

2010-09-18T14:48:00.001+08:00

2010-09-18T14:17:00.004+08:00

Went to the gym with G for 2 hours yay but I kinda really wanna be at East Coast Park now.
But you see R's in Malaysia, M have to attend a family chalet and G don't wanna go ):

No, stupid M! Oke not stupid but no I do not like d*i*a*m*o*n*d but he cute what confirm win mwahahaha (Don't act I know you think he's cute too heh) plus since he taught us before and partnered me and likes laughing at us when we do something wrongly. We should go to like support a bit right! I wanna watch tsk but it's okay there's always gonna be another match we can all go together again heehe so all's good. Um after N levela go back training leh prease. MT> Capoeira kkk (A)

2010-09-17T15:05:00.002+08:00

There's a match tomorrow at FWA and ~ is fighting but I don't think we're going |:

2010-09-16T19:28:00.000+08:00

Whatever happened to Count your blessings?

2010-09-16T13:25:00.021+08:00

Lied to my mom said I'm going to the doctors to get myself an MC. Forced myself out the house. Ran to Pasir Ris Park and walked with heads down with eyes that wouldn't leave the ground. Spotted a black spider the size of my palm hanging from a tree. Dilemma between sitting on the rocks hoping I'll slip and fall or just keep walking. I chose walking so I wandered aimlessly in the park then decided to head to the playground so I could sit on the swing. Had to tie my shoelaces so I stopped and sat at the place where I tasted my first cigarette. 2007? Got up and continued making my way. Spotted a couple, turned and sprinted to the opposite direction so that meant no more swing. God knows what I was doing. Stepping on purple flowers on the sides of the pavement. Making turns just because I don't want to go close to humans, didn't want to come in contact with any human but birds and bees are okay. There were massive amount of red ants which I thought was gross. On my back home, the same route I took when I walked home crying at night last month and a ridiculous sad song just had to play and I had to fight back the tears. I made it. I never thought of death so much but death doesn't solve shit does it?

I never forget about what people say about me. I can recall every single nasty thing being said about me from as far back as 4 years ago. You might think that I'm okay with it or sometimes I say I'm okay with it, truth is I'm not, not even close to being okay with it. Honestly, are you dumb enough to believe what I say? That it's okay? Who the fuck is okay with someone stepping on their self-esteem? You don't go round shooting a person in the head then say I'm sorry then kicking his body again do you? Cruelty. Say something and I'll pretend like it's nothing and it doesn't affect me at all and the next thing you know I'm seated down and quiet having those words crawl back into my head and it never leaves. Even if it does, it always find it's way back into my head. It lingers. Sometimes I feel like I'm slowly decomposing or eaten alive. This isn't even about one person that said something. People just have to keep doing it. I get affected easily even if you didn't mean it.

It's a good thing there's no cigarettes to be found at home. To the people that made me feel like dirt, are you happy now? I bet you have no idea. And whatever I've typed here, please don't go screwing things up for me even more by asking.

2010-09-15T20:33:00.003+08:00

Locked in the toliet, sitting on the floor and bawling my eyes out. What did I do to deserve this? I don't wanna cry anymore.

2010-09-15T14:11:00.022+08:00

Yesterday evening was spent with Rizkha, Hayati and Nabilah. We talked, laughed, ate and studied (I had to since they all were or I'd feel hella guilty bahaha) It was nice because when was the last time we hung out together!? Yes I'm still thinking about the pretty little purse and key thingamajig. I will get it! I hope. Soon enough or I won't be able to sleep in peace ):

I can make you tilt your head.
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Told chu.

I'm fully aware how pathetic it is to cry yourself to sleep but I can't help it.
If I told you this was killing me would you stop?

2010-09-13T17:18:00.009+08:00

I can't stand how boring school is. We had Chemistry and that's about it, for the entire day.

I bet nobody notices that the painting on the back of the wall of our class isn't mere decorations. In the midst of staring at the wall during MT class while I was trying to sleep in class aaalone with Hedley's Perfect on repeat. It's so uncomfortable sleeping in class even though the weather was perfect. I rest my head on my arm then I shift over to my hand and god, my fingers are so hard and uncomfortable my head was hurting then my neck started to ache. How do people fall asleep in class so easily?! Back to the painting on the wall, I spy molecules, electron shells and pointilism splattered all over. Hmm okay I should stop repeating what I've said. I was just secretly amazed or maybe openly amazed. I was like whoa okay must tell Siti must tell Siti must tell Siti must tell somebody anybody when they end class and come back and I did :D

When I had nothing to do during relief period I was thinking about this. I wanted to write it on the newspaper with the green whiteboard marker but Rahman snatched it from me. Nah he asked me for it, he didn't snatch mwaha but mmyeah.

I have a fetish for pictures of people smoking but I don't think people should smoke.
I know it feels good but people shouldn't. Smoking only looks good in pictures.

2010-09-12T18:32:00.004+08:00

Went to the gym in the morning and rushed home to get ready to go to my grandma's place which was a bad choice.
Nothing against my grandma, not her. Not gonna elaborate but it made me hate myself more. I almost cried. Don't ask.

2010-09-11T19:26:00.016+08:00

Yesterday! All my plans I made in my head were screwed so I decided to ditch everything and switched off the computer and just go to the park for a walk with a book and just sit at the rocks facing the sea. Like fun only but so alone but aaah whatever I've been alone all my life so I'm alright with it oke back to the point so I got ready and switched off the computer and when I looked out the window it was drizzling. Ugh (Stabs self) Ended up staring at the rain for a while, depressed mode on while I lay on my parent's bed and fell asleep for an hour. Woke up and got ready and went out as a family instead.

Had our dinner at Alexandra Rd. Stupid Crystal and Gloria were laughing at me when the lady was taking orders for our drinks because she was speaking in Mandarin and I was a bit panicky lol so I was like 不要不要!! That's to shut her up nicely because I don't know what else to say omg but really my Mandarin is actually not that bad I swear, really |:

After dinner, drove to Safra @ Telok Blangah to park the car (The one where we had our level camp which wasn't exactly pleasant at all, for me that is) then climbed to the top of Mt Faber> Henderson Waves Bridge then back to Safra's Ya Kun Kaya Toast to rest, drink, talk and eat. Whao I'm elaborating everything :D

Dad dropped me, Gloria and Crystal at E!hub while he headed back home with my mom. We were supposed to watch a movie but we didn't, ended up at the supermarket getting snacks and wine then we walked home. Got home and accompanied my dad to watch Gamer. Not bad you should watch it, whoever you are heh. I think boys will like it, all those gamer people lanxcore kinda people. Oh right I created the word lanxcore sorry if it doesn't makes sense. Marilyn Manson's in the soundtrack so when we were watching I'm like heeey. Movie ended and it was close to 12AM alrd so I went to sleep first while they continued watching another DVD.

Today! Dad's office in the morning till late afternoon. Trimmed my hair again. I hate how it's so.. damaged (/// wrists) Cousin came over our place and they just left not long ago for dinner but I refused to go. There's food at home and I'm tired D:

Die. So I got back to watching Korean dramas and I don't want my fan girl moments back. Sobs I don't wanna like the stupid flawless heart melting 현중 anymore. Look it's happening! I'm complimenting! NoOoOoOo he's too perfect O-O

P.S I drew an anchor using permanent marker on my dad's left wrist like a tattoo.

2010-09-10T09:03:00.005+08:00

Hello to anyone and everyone. Drop me something on formspring please 1, 2 or 3! Anything. I just answered about 14 if anyone actually bothers, feel free to go read. I'm hoping it'll be from different people with different things to say but I'm not asking you to disguise yourself as someone else. Heh thank you in advance and Selamat hari raya semua (K)

2010-09-09T14:33:00.009+08:00

There's this thing I want to say not like it's anything new but I hate liars (Who doesn't) and I'll know if someone tells a lie.
Even though I pretend I don't, I do, since young. Don't know if it's a good or bad thing. It's just not cool so stop composing fables.

2010-09-07T16:21:00.002+08:00

Here I am lying in bed trying to avoid conversation with my mom. I don't mean to cry all the time or be this stupid. I studied so hard.

2010-09-06T10:43:00.002+08:00

Definitely the worst time to fall sick. Fever, headache and sore throat. Felt horrible yesterday but I popped my dad's pills and felt better. I'm on my second mug of not so tasty honey aloe vera drink sobz. I've been studying but I don't think it's enough. I will have to shut the computer soooooooon, only way to study is to kill temptation. I'm probably the only one that doesn't know or experience the "N level atmosphere" like how the others already did this morning. I feel like I'm missing out a whole lot. I freaked out a lil this morning because I wasn't sure. I don't know I don't know ):

I'll have you know I'm scared to death.

2010-09-05T10:30:00.003+08:00

Spent hours talking and studying at the airport yesterday with Rizkha.
Back to Pasir Ris for dinner and I wanted to play pool but the place is always so damn full |:

2010-09-04T10:12:00.001+08:00

2010-09-03T13:42:00.006+08:00

SnoOooOoooki.

(Yawns) I'm super tired but I really should go to the gym later. Mmhm oke going because I know I'll feel 5x better. I will shove stuff to myself to keep me busy and tire myself out like a woohoo. Whao I sound like a psycho but I'm not ):

2010-09-03T13:25:00.008+08:00

School sucks.

Hiiii. I don't mean to be mean or ignore your text but yaaaa. Sorry. I suck at lying.

I don't want to be labeled as a crybaby even though I know I cry too much. People probably think that I cry over everything and anything even things so small I'll just cry but don't anyone stop and think that how I might be faking how happy I am sometimes or how I try to control to not let my feelings get the better of me. Like, do something to piss me off. Okay I won't explode. Other people do something else okay I'm still surviving. It goes on and on and different things and people just adds on to it and that's when I finally snap. So what I'm trying to say is I don't cry just because someone threw something small at me or I felt stupid. It's all these little effing small shite that sums up as a whole and I can't stand it anymore? Don't know if it makes sense but ya. I'll start building up walls everywhere around me I won't get close to anyone anymore. I'll bottle my feelings and thoughts up again. I won't babble about how I feel. Nobody likes unhappy people. Nobody likes people that complain. Nobody likes people who cry too much. So this time I'll just smile and be happy go lucky even if it kills me heh :D

Life is good. Tell yourself that and it will be. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaha. Sch schna schnappi bb.

2010-09-02T20:03:00.005+08:00

I've not gotten over the fact that MSN refuses to show what I'm listening to. Hello don't you know how much music is part of my life. It's like if I go deaf one day I will jump. Jump as in suicide jump not jump for joy kinda jump you dumbooooo.

I'm bored and alone at home. I better do some assignments later before I sleep tonight.

2010-09-02T17:43:00.016+08:00

Happy thoughts and happy thoughts only, I'll block out the rest that refuse to go away. Desperate enough to flip and read pages on a book that teaches how to be a happy teenager. Almost there, almost. Nobody likes being with unhappy people, that's what the book says |:

N level's so near, yay and nay for that. Can't wait for this whole shite to be over.

Well I think this scene is just plain a-d-o-r-a-b-l-e.

Kid Cudi's cover! Aww isn't Mark Mcgrath just amazingly fit, his age don't matter heehe.

Oke fan girl moment please excuse me I know this film's 2 years old but I cba okay?! Best show ever (Flips hair) Madness good kinda good y'know? But I guess people have different taste so if you don't agree with me.. nyeh nyeh nyeh! I can't stop ranting about it sorry ):

This picture does not do justice to how good looking they really are.
Beats Korean idols hands down. Oh shit did I just say that did I did I :D

FWAH! Roflcopter seriously (Fans self continuously)

Guys, her name's luckiest bitch on earth. No really ):

HNNNNG. Awww haha tsk.

2010-09-01T07:57:00.015+08:00

Oovoo with Rayray and the kuku before leaving home yesterday. Then Marina Square with Melrize, Grace and Rayray! Pizza Hut then Step Up 3 and that show's ridiculously good heehe but too bad 3D wasn't available sobz. But I really loathe the feeling after you watch a movie. Said it a million times but it's emptiness x 1000 all over again like it adds on you know!? Oh well. Movies are movies. Anyway every time the music blast so loud (So good) I kept picturing the audience in the theatre standing up to dance along to it tsk so fun! But it's just my imagination mwaha. I don't feel good at all watching how fit the girl is and I'm not okay!? That feeling sucked, too. Back to Pasir Ris supposingly to go home but my sister just had to be a total bitch through texting. I didn't wanna go home so we went to play pool then a lil bit of grocery shopping then home.

Yeaaah still feel like crap. Not that I want to. I'm messed up and selfish. It sucks, real bad. Mmm Step Up 3 soundtrack's gonna be on repeat for the next few days like it was two days back. Now that N level's so near, there's only space to study and there's hardly any time left to gym but it's okay because I'll wait till N level ends. And today's a stay home day. Mmhm.

2010-08-31T09:22:00.001+08:00

Because I'm afraid of what I might say.

2010-08-29T10:11:00.003+08:00

Fight Club.

Current obsession.

2010-08-28T19:27:00.014+08:00

I'm so sad and annoyed because MSN refuse to show what I'm listening to from iTunes even though it's been set as default player for audio files. Grrr ever since I downloaded the newest version of iTunes this shite won't work. Sobz help ):

Who reads up on Bonding Singapore while tanning? Me! Aren't you proud? Mwahahaha but I kinda ripped one or two of the pages accidentally but it's still good and in one piece so it's alright. We had the full view of the sky, it's so pretty because there's this ring of rainbow surrounding the sun. I kinda turned to Melrize and said maybe it's UFO O-O But really what! Who knows. Oke no it's a rainbow and that's that. Anyway yesterday while we're in the gym exercising there was a lil rainbow on my thigh heehe I'm the chosen one roflcopter it's just me being lucky to have the reflection of the water plus sun on me :D

Had LJS then went over to the Japanese place Grace brought us yesterday for Macha ice cream omnomnom so good. Tried on clothes at Topshop and we're most probably gonna go get stuff from there tomorrow after gymming. Yayee for crop tops (ultimate motivation for a fitter body bahaha) but money.. it's okay I'll learn to start saving from then onwards! x

Mom left this afternoon for a night at Fairmount hotel? I thought she went overseas for a night. And that's just to celebrate her friend's birthday. Bunch of girlies sleepover. Like fun only. Dad's leaving tomorrow morning at 6ish for China to play golf. Whaaao why's my parents life so hap and mine's not? Hap as in happening. Mine's not that bad.. I hope. Oke bb (K)

2010-08-27T21:09:00.009+08:00

5KM heehe oke I feel so accomplished kinda lil bit and we're tanning tomorrow! Why do I get the feeling it'll rain noo. Maybe it was the rain maybe it was just me but during Art class I said something omg I said nothing damn right I said something to Melrize. Don't ask don't ask! It's the one I told Siti about in class. God I'm embarrassed or am I just shy hahahaha nanano bb!

Paint splatter bkn $31 yes no yes uh oh dilemma. Not good. Want it real bad. Worth it or not D:

2010-08-25T13:22:00.002+08:00

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2010-08-25T11:43:00.009+08:00

2010-08-23T21:05:00.010+08:00

Okay school today blahblahblah then yay Siti accompanied me to get new shoes new soxxx new dress new clips new eraser mwahahaha. I think I need more shoes but not for school, bags too and clothes. Wanted to get choc fudge pop tarts from the supermarket omnomnom omg but I didn't in the end. Was hoping that I'll fall sick so I won't have to turn up for school tomorrow and guess what I really am sick now zzz but yay again no school for me tomorrow. To laugh or to cry kkk bb (A)

I kinda promised or swore that I'll do my English worksheet at home tomorrow iya so dumb why did I but oh well okay okay I will oh look I'm talking to myself. Heehe I have 3 magazines to browse and flip through though o yea o yea o yea Q(._.Q)

Oh shucks so I kinda really wanna know what's it like riding on a bike. Zz since forever but nehmind one day just wait only one day!!!!! Even though my parents would qill me if they ever find out but I want I want I want oke rant 101 over and out (K)

Psstttkkz. Oh ya that's the sound of the kiss I created roflcopter leave me alone lolol.

2010-08-22T12:43:00.011+08:00

Okay you see so this is what I'm gonna do, I'm gonna try to save money lol I said I'll try then I will get myself more cropped tops I don't know why or maybe I do but I like it, alot and I'm sure I need more denims. And I need new school shoes looking at my current pair now zz what is that even? New bkn along to go tanning with mwahaha. Pay for the lens and top ups. Play more pool so I'll be less of a noob and last but not least watch Step up 3 because Yaorong made it sound like it's impossible to miss. See! I need money, money, money so I'm a have to save it. And now it's time for Funshion, heh.

I'll try hard for my N's too d'oh just because I don't talk about me wanting to do well doesn't mean I don't want to oke.

2010-08-22T10:28:00.005+08:00

Yesterday we played pool then cabbed over to East coast park with the rest for dinner. Mmhm [:

2010-08-20T17:50:00.005+08:00

I have the sudden urge to paint my nails since yesterday and I will do so later (Flips hair) El oh el oh well (A)

2010-08-20T11:07:00.004+08:00

TGIF
Out of the three links above, plurk's dead but twitter's alive and tumblr too :D

2010-08-19T17:31:00.004+08:00

No night study for me since I just got back home and I don't want to rush heh
I must force myself to get off the computer by 7ish and lock myself up in the room to do my Art sobz.

2010-08-19T14:57:00.006+08:00

Yesterday I got rejected by two people for not wanting to run. Today I got rejected by three, imagine what I'd do if my sister didn't ask me to go to the gym but it's okay. Leaving home soon. Can't make up my mind if I should turn up for night study and if I do it'll be my first and I like doing things for the first time. I feel shitty but I'm still in the midst of convincing myself :D

2010-08-19T14:43:00.003+08:00

I follow the night
Can't stand the light
When will I begin
To live again?

One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday

Why live life from dream to dream?
And dread the day when dreaming ends

2010-08-19T14:21:00.002+08:00

2010-08-19T13:45:00.006+08:00

I feel so awful but I'm just gonna have to convince myself I don't.
Happiness never gets to me. I know I don't have the worst life but it's bad enough.

2010-08-18T16:21:00.015+08:00

Yesterday was so gangster. What! I had to say it. Went to run with A and a stranger lighted his cigarette and said hi as we ran past. I was secretly ready to throw punches because he looked like a rapist/molester mwahaha don't laugh, only I can laugh at myself. I've always, always wanted to get into a fight but I'm too much of a coward to start one. Like at least have a chance to put to good use with what I've learnt right! I want a fight with a weak bitchy bimbo then I'll win.

After pool M, G and me got ourselves an ice cream cone each and when I took my first lick the whole shite fell off (Stabs self) Walked under the rain looking for a place. At the beach, I accidentally burned my lower lip don't ask me how, I was multi tasking okay!? While walking home with G there's this stranger that said.. wha? I forgotten I think it's 小 mei but he's probably referring to G, heh. Before I slept last night I was about to get something that dropped on the floor and my face ended up hitting the side of the speaker so now there's a cut and it bled and burns when it touches water. Not like I don't have enough scars (/// wrists) Then I remembered that people hit stuff that make them fall or hurt right? So I excitedly hit the speaker.. only to hurt my hands. Did I just tell the whole world okay no really but did I just tell everyone that bothers reading what a loser I really am and I actually described it as gangstuhh. Heads up peace out

Oh ya! I had Mr Brightside lyrics stuck in my head the whole of today's paper, not good. I feel like I wasted the day away eating and sleeping. Not to forget how rejected I feel because no one wants to run with me today but na it's okay. I wanna tan, I like lying there doing nothing.

2010-08-18T14:53:00.001+08:00

I like Melrize's dream. The one where I was in a dance crew and can dance better than someone that can dance. BAHA :D

2010-08-17T12:22:00.010+08:00

The thoughts I fill my mind with so often, my feelings, they'll all eat me alive, one day soon enough.
I have today all planned out: Prelims, run, pool, study.

I got something I want to do, simple and unhealthy but it's just for a day.
To sit by the beach and just chain ~ Sounds depressing but good. Today? Mmkay.
I hate it when my mom is being so damn nosey when I talk on the phone |:<

When I read that paragraph above I was like,

And I like the new black glittery ceiling light in my room. Tata (K) :D

2010-08-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

Thing is, I don't know, I wish there was more to life, my life.

2010-08-16T14:14:00.010+08:00

You can put any face behind the mask but be careful because someone else might be pretending.
You might not be the only one with a secret.

I wasn't okay yesterday and I don't quite think I'm okay today but it's okay.

This morning while walking back to class:
Me: We are two unhappy people.
SK: Ya.
Me: Nevermind! Just smileee :D

I like walking in the rain and I'm gonna go jog in a while mmhm.

2010-08-16T11:23:00.003+08:00

Cold, cold world.

2010-08-15T13:09:00.005+08:00

It's kind of easy when you've got nothing because nothing can be taken away from you.
Your empty poisonous smile.

Everyone should watch Skins and I'm not kidding and this isn't the first time I've said it.

2010-08-15T11:47:00.004+08:00

" p/s : it seems like olivia is stronger than she seems to be. :D stay strong sweetie. ^^ "

Look what I found @ Sitay's tumblr :D♥

2010-08-15T08:44:00.010+08:00

Thursday we baked a heart shaped rainbow cake.
Friday we had school, Ray's place, BBQ Chicken.
Yesterday, Clark Quay, Peninsula and pool.

2010-08-13T13:56:00.001+08:00

I bumped into Aqilah aka Qiqi the monkey this morning while walking to school. It's been so long since we met :D
Abcdefgh I will update this most probably tonight when I get home, or not! Click the advertisement if you see it oke (K)

2010-08-12T20:55:00.008+08:00

This morning I went out at 6ish then sat at the void deck and started stoning till 7ish then left for school because I don't like being at home, so quiet and dark plus.. ya shush! Do not like |:

Went to Melrize's place after school. S-e-c-r-e-t!
Conversation on the way back home in the bus:

Me: You alight at school bus stop there eh!
Grace: Why.. you scared? (Pushes stop button)
Me: Heehehe a bit.
Grace: Don't want.
Me: I go find boyfriend then I won't be scared anymore.
Grace: Oke go, go find.
Me: I go geylang find! Yeeeee no (Covers eyes)
Grace: Not good.
Me: Of course not good! I go America find.
Grace: Exchange programme.
Me: Oke!!!!

Welcome to my life it happens all the time BAHA :D

2010-08-11T19:19:00.024+08:00

Hi, I don't care what others might say but this is for you.

Honestly, this is exhausting and I feel helpless again but I'm not gonna stop trying because you're my classmate and you're my son. I know you'll read this I just know it. A few hours ago didn't you make a promise? What's up with the status about the next time you'll commit not attempt? What's up really? This is me trying so hard to make you feel better. I've never really tried so hard in making someone feel better but I won't stop even if it gets tiring because you never got sick (I hope) of trying to make me feel better when I was down. Please please please let your friends and family help you. It's okay to seek help it's okay to cry it's okay to break just don't ever, ever give up on yourself. People love and care for you. Didn't you tell me that when I felt like nobody really cares and nobody really bothers. Didn't you say that? So why can't you think the same way too because it's true that people love and care about you. It's never too late to be someone better and we all know you can do this. I'll repeat whatever I've said to you over and over again even it means I have to say it a million times more. Nobody I say, no one would ever want to lose someone like you. Not me not him not her not them not us. Right now I'm so scared about saying the wrong thing that would make things worse so I'm just hoping this entry would make you understand a bit more. Don't do it again, you said you wouldn't. That's what you said. Next time sorry wouldn't help anymore. Just don't. Fuck. This is so hard not just for me but everyone else and I know it's not any easier for you but why can't you see? When you hurt, others hurt too. You can't understand why this have to happen and why you have to feel this way. You hate God for this don't you? You think God hates you or God doesn't exist but it's not true. People make mistakes and it's perfectly fine. You just have to pick yourself up when you fall and if it gets too hard, hold on because there are so many people out there willing to offer a hand in helping you up. It could be just a phase you have to get through and things would get better. Don't waste your life just like that just because you don't feel good. There are so much more in this world you haven't seen or done so don't waste it and make the best out of it in a positive way. Nobody wanted this. So, be strong and have faith :D

I'll walk around holding a sign that says F>GF if that's what it takes to give you a reason to live. I'll find you a hot as hell girlfriend if I have to!! You can ditch your lemon drink you got from the vending machine because she's cold, who care's if she's sweet and I've not met her. Okay inside joke nobody would get this if they read this part but you know what I'm saying!

And to people who knows nothing, don't bother asking or assuming because it'll only worsen things.
It'll be nicer if you would shut up rather than asking him what happened and to cheer up. Thanks.

2010-08-11T17:57:00.003+08:00

I pray that things get better for everyone. Gonna go for a quick jog soon |:

2010-08-10T17:52:00.016+08:00

Ayo! Heehe I like the awkwardness when I jog in the opposite direction of someone else in the same pavement but not just anyone. There was this fit guy - not asian I think I'm guessing mixed blood. I looked away when we got closer though omg do I sound like a perv I'm just shy (Covers face) Umm idk if I like it when people turn their heads to look though. Is 2 girls jogging a big deal!! What! Are only adults allowed to exercise!! Mwahahahaha I'm just saying ^-^

I went jogging with Grace awhile ago and it was the first time I wore my class tee out and guess who I bumped into? Dahlya and Sitayyyyy, wearing the same as me huh huh huh! Right when I saw her from afar I covered the logo with my hands. Like as if it helped cover. Nyahahaha.

Time to bathe. There's school tomorrow. Sian x 10!

2010-08-10T11:10:00.007+08:00

Dear God, this time I won't believe in the 11:11 bullsh anymore instead I'll pray.
I'll pray to you and when 11:11 flashes, It'll just be a reminder that it's time to pray if I ever forget :D

2010-08-10T10:09:00.013+08:00

Yesterday we spent National day at Costa sands resort because relatives have rooms there. Reached there and shopped around, bought stuff from Charles and keith. God knows how many times I got upskirt by the wind zz but I had safety shorts on so it's okay no actually it's not.

Had snacks buffet. Caught fireworks at the sky park thingamajig. The view was good but other than that it was okay. I didn't exactly had effloads of fun yesterday I'm not gonna lie. Stuck at the roof alone because the lift was so crowded and Gloria went to look for Crystal while my mom went to look for the washroom so I sat alone and listened to Copeland sobz don't ever leave me alone thinking because I can think of a million and one things that do me no good.

Crystal came to find us later at night and we took pictures and laughed a lot. I kept faking my accent at the lobby while talking to her heehe like a weetard but I had fun. While waiting for my dad to fetch us home by the road, YOG buses drove passed and they kept waving at us so I waved back!! Because I'm certain there's gotta be at least 1 2 3 eye candies waving back

2010-08-08T20:13:00.003+08:00

Formspring me loads and loads of questions please? For me

2010-08-08T15:48:00.002+08:00

Right now I'll brush off thoughts of everything (I don't even know what) and watch Skins :D

2010-08-08T14:41:00.021+08:00

You know you're not happy when all you want to do is sit somewhere and be alone, not lonely but alone. When people ask what's wrong I don't know where to start because I'm not sure myself so how am I supposed to answer to that. Was there even anything that's wrong. I read somewhere that people care less than you think they do. It's depressing that it could be true. There's nothing for me here but where do we go when we leave this place. Does heaven and hell really exist. I am tired, tired of living for nothing. I am fully aware I sound pathetic but I guess maybe I just am. I don't even know how I feel anymore. I look at people and they look so happy and contented with life and I'm not saying all of them but most so why can't I be happy and contented too. It scares me to think that I'm gonna stay this way forever, never happy and contented with life. Almost stagnant, stuck at the same spot and not living life the way I should. I don't even know if this whole chunk of words makes sense but I can't be bothered anymore. I removed all the question marks I used because I hate questions that have no answers. People assume I'm happy just because I appear happy. It doesn't really mean that I'm happy, really and I'm not saying I'm a really unhappy person but I don't remember being genuinely happy. Well at least, not anymore. Is that counted as sad. What's sad. What is this. I can't even. I don't know what I want. I don't know what I feel. I don't know what to say. Why can't we all just be happy and have what we want. What's gonna be left of me if.. nevermind please don't ask.

As empty as that beating drum.

2010-08-08T08:45:00.002+08:00

I desperately want to exercise, sit ups crunches flutter kicks jogging whatever
Yesterday in 1 word is ouchiez. Click the ads above if you see it, please and thank you! x

2010-08-07T13:53:00.006+08:00

Just got back and I feel so fricken awful and I blame the steps, no I didn't physically fall if you're guessing why

2010-08-07T13:06:00.004+08:00

I haven't got the chance to talk to my sister for days now. She's obviously not okay. Mmm I'm gonna go for a quick jog by myself really soon and when I get back I bathe and get ready wheehoo then meet the rest. Today's gonna be a good day :D

2010-08-07T09:35:00.009+08:00

Aerosmith's Cryin' playing on a Sunday morning.

Last night ze family went on the S'pore flyer which I thought was a bit waste of cash and time though but it's alright it's sorta lil family outing just that Crystal was somewhere else alone. Anyway, I'm on FYT, is it too early to be excited?

The weather's lovely and I'm still considering if I should go for a jog alone :D

2010-08-07T09:20:00.006+08:00

Hold your head high heavy heart.

2010-08-06T18:19:00.012+08:00

Are humans born to this earth only to experience such loneliness? Just saying.

National Day celebration wasn't as fun as I expected it to be. Sat under some random block with Siti and we cleared all our misunderstandings we used to have heehe. Went to tan just now with Melrize. The sun is dope as hell I swear!!! Yay I bought stuff too. I'm full, just had dinner :D

Singapore flyer l8r. Sianzzzz x 10 |:

2010-08-05T18:52:00.013+08:00

I feel so helpless now. Hello R & K, I want to be there for you guys like how you guys were always there for me and to every single one of you in the band, please feel okay soon.

And I talked to Genny for more than an hour under my block about stufffff |:

2010-08-03T22:06:00.008+08:00

Had SS paper today and I got to go home early because I don't have to take the Mother tongue paper heehe. Went home and got ready then met Melrize, Grace and Amy for lunch. After that we wasted time walking around and I bought me a new tongue stud yayee. They left and I stayed to meet my mom and her friend + the daughter aka Chelsea. Had ice cream at Geláre. Decided to walk home but my mom and her friend wants to take the bus so I pulled Chelsea along to walk home with me and compete with the moms taking the bus and we raced for awhile mwahahaha they reached home by 2 minutes earlier. Mmm I got me some Cupcake pebbles from the supermarket earlier on. Went for a quick run with Grace just now too :D

2010-08-02T21:01:00.001+08:00

2010-08-02T19:52:00.015+08:00

Not exactly a die hard fan of Slash but wdfbbqchickenbaolormaikai he's performing at Fort Canning Park as I type. I think it's quite cool how he's in Singapore heehe he's a pretty god damn famous guitarist. Mmmm I wanna borrow his biography from Crystal soon to read hyukhyukhyuk. I didn't expect today's English paper to be sucha killuhhhhh though |:

While they had their Mother Tongue paper, I was people-watching in the library + studying + texting. Yayee they have another Mother Tongue paper again tomorrow. Falalalalala.

Oh ya I can't give up on my sad songs because they're so good mwahahaha. Umm I had a really hard time during English paper 2. I wanted to give up and cry.. what's new? That's so me but I already made a promise to myself a few days back that I'm not gonna cry anymore. I'm not gonna let my feelings take over me. I'm gonna be happy like a wheehoo. Because I had a million and one things on my mind and being in class doesn't help at all. My throat felt like it was constantly being poked by a needle it tickles and it hurts then suddenly I had flu and my right eye kept tearing I kept coughing omg that's it!!! I'm a weirdo sobz. Need to study for SS l8r ):

2010-08-01T21:35:00.012+08:00

I had fun today with Melrize, Raywyn, Felicity and Meien :D

This afternoon we met at White Sands then bused over to Tampines wanting to tan and swim. Ugh I actually ran on the treadmill, did crunches and flutter kicks and a bit more other stuff just to tan (not like it made a lot of difference) and end up the weather was zz the entire day but I wouldn't give up so I came up with the smartest ahem idea, I pulled Melrize along to the 2nd level to tan. Only to find ourselves freezing under the rain. Not like I wasn't sick enough |:

Met Meien at E!hub for BBQ chicken omnomnom then sat under some random block and talked then dropping by Rayray's place to chill for awhile before heading home. School tmrw sobz.

2010-08-01T11:10:00.003+08:00

May the weather be damn hot today oke please thank you. Am going out soon :D
My god the picture so bloody bright. Bad effect shite balls darker pix next time.